The Challenge: Tell a story with a mirror
The Picture: Before you have kids you think – kids aren’t going to dictate my life, I’ll do all the things I’ve always enjoyed doing. The thing you never expect is that you don’t want to do the things you always enjoyed anymore – at least I don’t. Evening networking event or drink with friends – no thank you. Keep fit by going to the gym or even out for a jog – not interested. Date night? – umm maybe…
It’s not that I don’t want to do those things. If there were 30 hours in a single day perhaps I wouldn’t mind spending an hour or two on them but with the few precious hours at my disposal, I’d much rather spend it racing cars, splashing in the bathtub, pushing a swing at a park and saving Lucas from any number of dangerous activities he wants to explore.
I’m wearing my Lucas’ Mommy locket and my Carrie necklace. It’s a struggle to be both. I love being Lucas’ mom. It’s my favorite thing. But I have to be Carrie too – for work, for Danny and for my general well-being (I will always be a mom but I won’t always have a kid to take care of). So when I look in the mirror these days, I don’t know who’s looking back at me, what she wants or how she’ll make it happen. But I’m working on it.
I know in time I’ll figure it out and, in the meantime, I have a great support system and the best little boy.